nein bed bugs in '09

The bug bites are aplenty. I am so glad to finally be out of the house I was in for the last 3 months. I loved the people I was living with, but the house was really bad news. Mice and bed bugs. Miserable. After losing my job at the Cocoa Tree, my friend Melanie said I could move in with her and her parents in Franklin. I jumped at the chance. It's so nice of them to let me stay in their house and eat their food. I hope I can do something really nice for them. In the meantime, I am having a hell of a time finding a job. I even went to the mall. The MALL. So please be praying that God provides a job for me. It just has to happen. It has to. I have bills that are due.

My good friend Victor Huckabee came over tonight and brought Seabass. I made a little video of him just before he fell asleep on my giant butt. Oh, that's another thing. There's an eliptical at Melanie's house! I was on it for 40 minutes today. If you know me at all, you know that is pretty spectacular.



Hooray for a clean, warm house. Please don't take those things for granted. I know I have a whole new appreciation for the little things now.

today is mine and i am his.

I have been in Nashville for 101 days. I am sitting in my usual spot in Bongo Java drinking the cheapest coffee concoction I could come up with. I am itching from bed bug bites and tugging at my favorite v-neck that has newly-chewed mouse holes around the edge. I have Craigslist minimized with the sparse listing of jobs available in Franklin Tennessee, where I am relocating to live with a friend's parents who will let me stay in an empty room for free for a little while. I lost another job. I was laid off at the Cocoa Tree, because they could no longer afford to keep me on staff. I am losing heart.

...and I am happy. In the past two weeks, I have found a new motivation to power through here. During Christmas, I had decided to definitely move home. Then I met some really incredible people that encouraged me to be intentional about my time here. I was just trying to be comfortable... to move home because it is safe and it's what I know. I will move back to Seattle sometime, I just am not sure when. I want to make sure that I am not making any decision without being prayerful first.

Please pray for me. I feel like I can not get my head out of the water financially. I am having a great time here, but I need to be in a better situation. I need peace and clarity. I have a lot of decisions to make, and I'd like to be able to make them without anxiety.

Meet Sebastian Dinosaur Huckabee... but we call him "Seabass". He is Victor's new puppy.

f. u. 0. 8.

I'd like to take this time to review 2008. The year I turned 25, got my first tattoo and moved across the country.

...wait, was that it? Did I just review 2008?



photo by ellie lonardo

benjamin button.

Tonight I went with Keegan, his sisters Kali and Timshel, and their husbands Paul and Skip to go see The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. I cried for a good bit of the movie. As we left the theater, all 5 of them were talking about how terrible the movie was. I told them I wept like a baby, and that I must have had other stuff going on to provoke that sort of emotion, but laughed it off. Sure, maybe the acting wasn't the best, but the story was interesting, and it kept my attention. Brad Pitt in his prime and half-dressed on the beach is something I don't mind spending $9 to see. The story was narrated in bits by Julia Ormond, who plays a daughter who is at the hospital by her mother's bedside waiting for her to die, basically. Her mom tells her about an old diary in the suitcase, and Julia pulls it out and reads it... in short, it turns out to be Benjamin's diary, yada yada. I knew I was a gonner when the mother, who was maybe around 60 or so... perhaps cancer, was slowly starting to struggle for life. She had a difficult time breathing and mentioned cotton mouth. She had a wrap on her head, to suggest that she didn't have any hair. She looked just like my mom. Sounded like her, with her heavy breathing and slight southern drawl. It was really hard for me to watch. After the movie, I shrugged it off so everyone else would assume I just have poor taste in movies, but alas, I miss my mom.








My mom, Kathy, was diagnosed with cervical cancer in July of 2002. That day, she started an online diary. She kept up with it as best she could until the day she died, October 14th, 2003, when my dad wrote the last entry. I'd like to share it with you, as I'd hate for her writings to go unread after time. I plan on making a paper journal with the entries soon. Her journey is really something spectacular to witness. She goes through all the things you might guess- fear, hope, sadness, and ultimately peace knowing she will be with Jesus.

Here is her diary.

bloops.

I was cleaning out the ol' hard drive and thought this was worth posting before I deleted it.

take 1) Blagh.

take 2) I realize that I might have forgotten that Michael is in the next room. I am suddenly nervous and embarrassed.

take 3) I am not paying attention for the first bit, because I'm still thinking about take 2.

christmas care package

my christmas wish.

I am missing home.

I would really like it if everyone sent me polaroids of them.

1008 W Eastland Ave
Nashville, TN 37206



My very very good wonderful most favorite friend, Ellie was here this past week from Seattle. We had so much fun. We took a lot of good pics that she will be uploading soon, so until then, I will leave you with this teaser:







here's a few videos that entertained me today:

1) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ArZRWJwKdWs
2) http://pitchfork.tv/in-the-studio/lee-scratch-perry-andrew-wk
3) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UMPjFVQv7vw